My 3rd thread change

My third thread change (2 days ago) was pretty painful! So glad it only takes a minute to do! As I've mentioned before, doc does his best to distract especially when he knows it'll hurt...so he asks me random questions about my accommodation as he's changing the thread. As I'm wincing in pain, hanging on for dear life and laughing all at the same time, he's asking me questions to distract me, and repeating them until I answer. He's giving me something to focus on throughout the process. At the end he even said he would have been surprised if I'd answered all his questions (he knew it was a sore one!).

The intensity of the pain did not last, I was just sore for the rest of the day, and the next day I woke with the least amount of pain I've had in a year! It gave me a taste of what's to come when I'm finished with the treatment - and it was exhilarating! The pain comes and goes but yeah, that pain free period was an amazing feeling as it's been SO long since I've had no pain that I've forgotten what that's like. I had forgotten what it's like to SIT like a normal person!! 

I also got to witness two others visiting the clinic for the last time. Two more fistula fighters set free from the horror! I LOVE those moments for so many reasons. And when I meet the new arrivals, I am so very happy for them because I know that as daunting as it feels for them (as it did for me), they are oblivious to just how amazingly supported they are and what a wild journey they are about to embark on...





not the best pic, but mumma bird has laid her eggs in the tree outside my balcony. 
 2 eggs (and a tissue!) 


here she is giving me the stare. 
I say good morning every day so she has no reason to be scared of me, but she still gives me the face









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